“CERN… does this really exist as a possibility?”

My name is Paula, and I am currently pursuing a PhD in Physics at CERN, in Geneva. I have been living here for three years now, but my journey began at the University of Cantabria (Spain), part of the European university consortium EUNICE.

I studied a Double Degree in Physics and Mathematics at the University of Cantabria. I started in 2017, almost ten years ago now. And yet, I remember it as if it was yesterday — the nerves of the first day, the first exam. The fiftieth exam too, because experience never really made me calmer. I remember the overwhelming arrival of COVID, and afterwards, the strong desire we all had to leave home, to step outside our comfort zone. A desire that, at least for me, never went away.

I remember the moment I chose the topic for my Bachelor’s thesis in Physics — high-energy physics. Without a doubt, a decision that brought me closer to the life I have today. It was encouraged by the fact that my university has a strong High Energy Physics research group, closely collaborating with CERN.

But what I remember most is seeing, in a remote corner of the university website, a small note: “Opportunities abroad – CERN Summer Student.” CERN… does this really exist as a possibility? I had always dreamed of visiting it, even before deciding to study physics. Well… once I had seen it… how could I not try?

I remember submitting my application with a mix of nerves and hesitation, telling as few people as possible. Months later, I was in a lab class when I received an email from CERN. My first thought was: “What a terrible day to receive a rejection,” as I looked out the window. It was raining, I was exhausted, and I did not even want to open the email. Finally, encouraged by a classmate who had noticed the notification, I opened it. I jumped in the middle of the classroom… I had been accepted. My dream, since forever.

As I said before, I have now been here for three years, and I do not know how long I will stay. That is why I know I have to enjoy the journey as much as possible. No matter what happens, this experience brings you international connections, and, more importantly, friendships. Each of us here has arrived by a different path, and understanding this has shown me how important it is not to give up. International experiences open many doors, and having the courage to walk through them always strengthens you.

I am very grateful that I came across that announcement, and it is so important that universities promote opportunities like this. Stay attentive, and look for your own path!